i'd swim the ocean for you

i like metro station. they're cute and they make me feel just... nice.
i've been having such a good time, i had to stop and slow down and think about everything.

i wish there was a way to develop all the pictures from my mind.
i would've liked to have them, in case i end up getting dragged miles away from here to a new "home."
it's selfish of me to say that this will still be my real home, regardless of where i end up, because i'm sure i'll assimilate eventually.
but there are some moments i think it'd be fun to have snapshots in, so i won't forget.

it's freezing outside, and i don't like it, but i do.
to tell you the truth, i liked it when we were driving with the windows down because the rain was fogging them up
it was raining inside, on me, and the cold air was making me shake
but it just felt like being there on that highway was somewhere i should be.

like i'm finally breaking out of my shell where i'm not afraid to do things now
i mean, i went to a show in detroit with two guys who were two and three years my senior
a year ago, i would've never gone


i'm trying to decide if that's a good thing or if i'm just taking too many risks
ohh i've just always been afraid to do something with my life.

people keep wanting to hang out
i don't want to get too close now, in case it happens
i can't let this cloud of not knowing just hang over me like this


strangely, i'm not even sad right now.
just, thinking. and wondering. and waiting for next week, i suppose, when dad talks to the guy at work and basically determines the rest of my high school life.

i think it'd be nice to be an artist, if i had more talent. photography, i think.
more excuses to capture every moment.