i want to get back into sketching stuff like i used to.
and i want to manage to keep a journal for more than a month without getting bored and forgetting to update.
in the spirit of post secret and a new year;
Sunday, December 30, 2007
oh. one more.
new years resolution i forgot about.
i want to get back into sketching stuff like i used to.
and i want to manage to keep a journal for more than a month without getting bored and forgetting to update.
in the spirit of post secret and a new year;
i want to get back into sketching stuff like i used to.
and i want to manage to keep a journal for more than a month without getting bored and forgetting to update.
in the spirit of post secret and a new year;
i'm a dork.
i actually have plans for the new year, yay-hooray!
we're partying at jon's with jp, mike, bowen, chelsea, sahana, and maybe dom?
then chelsea and sahana are coming home and crashing at my house.
i also have bright pink hair. i got bored.
so i managed to convince my mom to bleach my hair, and dye it pink for me.
it's got little pinkish orange bits towards the ends, and when i pull it back the underside is really bright neon pink.
it makes me look like a lion, kind of.
i like it.
i'll be pissed if school makes me dye over it.
in other news, we went to michaels today.
shannon bought craft supplies.
i bought a new sketch pad, sharpie, and a can of red spray paint to smuggle into school so the reds can tag the prop room.
white primer just wasn't doing the job... i adore crew <3
i finally got new earbuds from my dad.
apparently he's had them in his drawer for ages while i've been listening to my music for a month through one earbud that's starting to crackle and static. so now, i can hear angels & airwaves in full sound quality in BOTH EARS.
it's fantastic.
i guess in the spirit of the new year, since i'll be too tired to blog tomorrow night, i'll post my resolutions.
i don't really have any set in stone ones.
i decided i should probably work out some. less junk food might be a good idea.
and i'm going to actually take some risks in life.
and i'm going to let my friends know how much i care about them and value them.
oh, and i'm going to hold a killer ping pong tournament at my house sometime so my mom can meet jon.
i really, need to get better things to resolve about. but i'm happy and good.
happy new year, all. i love you guys. :)
we're partying at jon's with jp, mike, bowen, chelsea, sahana, and maybe dom?
then chelsea and sahana are coming home and crashing at my house.
i also have bright pink hair. i got bored.
so i managed to convince my mom to bleach my hair, and dye it pink for me.
it's got little pinkish orange bits towards the ends, and when i pull it back the underside is really bright neon pink.
it makes me look like a lion, kind of.
i like it.
i'll be pissed if school makes me dye over it.
in other news, we went to michaels today.
shannon bought craft supplies.
i bought a new sketch pad, sharpie, and a can of red spray paint to smuggle into school so the reds can tag the prop room.
white primer just wasn't doing the job... i adore crew <3
i finally got new earbuds from my dad.
apparently he's had them in his drawer for ages while i've been listening to my music for a month through one earbud that's starting to crackle and static. so now, i can hear angels & airwaves in full sound quality in BOTH EARS.
it's fantastic.
i guess in the spirit of the new year, since i'll be too tired to blog tomorrow night, i'll post my resolutions.
i don't really have any set in stone ones.
i decided i should probably work out some. less junk food might be a good idea.
and i'm going to actually take some risks in life.
and i'm going to let my friends know how much i care about them and value them.
oh, and i'm going to hold a killer ping pong tournament at my house sometime so my mom can meet jon.
i really, need to get better things to resolve about. but i'm happy and good.
happy new year, all. i love you guys. :)
Thursday, December 27, 2007
i'm so cool,
i pour my bottled frappuccinos into coffee mugs because it makes me feel less lame.
life is good.
i am legend last night was fun :)
and then chelsea spent the night!
we went to bed at around 5.30am.
i ended up going back to bed after she left and sleeping until about two.
not much else to say thats worth posting for the world to see.
life is good.
i am legend last night was fun :)
and then chelsea spent the night!
we went to bed at around 5.30am.
i ended up going back to bed after she left and sleeping until about two.
not much else to say thats worth posting for the world to see.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
yeah yeah yeah christmas!
LAST NIGHT I SAW CARL! it made me really happy :D :D we sat a couple rows behind him in church so he gave me a highfive as i was walking back from communion xD my sister laughed at me.
but after mass he ran over and i got hugs and it was cool.
hahah so i was up until about one watching the warriors because i couldn't sleep last night. well, i was actually about to fall asleep when i plugged in my phone and saw that i had a new voicemail from alec. so even though it's like 11, i listened to the voicemail, which was basically an early merry christmas because he knew i'd be too busy to answer my phone this morning.
right, so when i finally fell asleep i woke up again at five am, then AGAIN at seven when my sister burst into my room and started shaking me because "IT'S CHRISTMAS!"
... i could've used a bit more sleep, but that's just me.
anywho, a breakdown of the goodies :]
my stocking was general little cool stuff, candy, etc.
then my sister gave me a "I <3 TOXIC WASTE" shirt (i don't actually heart toxic waste, it's from a movie :D )
er. and i got a kickass moleskine notebook i asked for because i wanted it, some random grandparent gifts, another fancy whiteboard, a tim hortons coffee mug because i always steal my dad's :D
they got me a four pack of "dark chocolate peppermint mocha" frappuchinos from starbucks in the cool bottles, I-EMPIRE (!) and the matches' first album (!) :D
oh and these amazing fingerless gloves i fell in love with at world market that look kind of like they belong on sherpa but they're really cool. they were made in like tibet or something and they're great.
AND...
(insert chelsea and jon freaking out here)
A NEW CAMERA :D
canon powershot a560, just like i asked for. it's amazing and suprisingly just about the right size to fit in my back pocket if i really needed to carry it there.
all in all, a good christmas :]
hope you all had a great one too.
but after mass he ran over and i got hugs and it was cool.
hahah so i was up until about one watching the warriors because i couldn't sleep last night. well, i was actually about to fall asleep when i plugged in my phone and saw that i had a new voicemail from alec. so even though it's like 11, i listened to the voicemail, which was basically an early merry christmas because he knew i'd be too busy to answer my phone this morning.
right, so when i finally fell asleep i woke up again at five am, then AGAIN at seven when my sister burst into my room and started shaking me because "IT'S CHRISTMAS!"
... i could've used a bit more sleep, but that's just me.
anywho, a breakdown of the goodies :]
my stocking was general little cool stuff, candy, etc.
then my sister gave me a "I <3 TOXIC WASTE" shirt (i don't actually heart toxic waste, it's from a movie :D )
er. and i got a kickass moleskine notebook i asked for because i wanted it, some random grandparent gifts, another fancy whiteboard, a tim hortons coffee mug because i always steal my dad's :D
they got me a four pack of "dark chocolate peppermint mocha" frappuchinos from starbucks in the cool bottles, I-EMPIRE (!) and the matches' first album (!) :D
oh and these amazing fingerless gloves i fell in love with at world market that look kind of like they belong on sherpa but they're really cool. they were made in like tibet or something and they're great.
AND...
(insert chelsea and jon freaking out here)
A NEW CAMERA :D
canon powershot a560, just like i asked for. it's amazing and suprisingly just about the right size to fit in my back pocket if i really needed to carry it there.
all in all, a good christmas :]
hope you all had a great one too.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
for christmas,
i've decided that while i'm sitting here avoiding going to bed, i might write this up. i've been meaning to for a while and never got around to it, but i think it might help to put my year into perspective and it'll be nice to have around when i'm blue.
yeah, and i'm in a list making mood anyhow.
things i love about life.
1. looking through stacks of old pictures and remembering.
2. sunny days in the summer where all the leaves are green and the sky's so beautifully blue.
3. bare feet.
4. sundresses.
5. my teddy bear, valiant.
6. warm blankets on cold days.
7. hot cocoa with lots of marshmallows.
8. when my dad makes fires in the fireplace some days in the fall, and we all sit around reading by the fire.
9. the way stars sparkle in the night sky when we're all wandering around at fencing.
10. discovering a song you absolutely love.
11. trench warfare with vitamin water!
12. seeing the full moon.
13. mornings where the bus is on time so you don't freeze.
14. waking up to cute text messages.
15. spiced apple cider with a cinnamon stick in it.
16. wading in the ocean.
17. 35mm film and real pictures.
18. making mixtapes for midnight drives i hope to take.
19. receiving the coolest mixtapes from the coolest people.
20. texting in spanish class and getting away with it.
20.5. seeing other people text in spanish class and not get away with it.
21. jack skellington bed sheets.
22. taking "mental health days" and calling in sick to school.
23. riding on the back of motorcycles.
24. the obnoxious sound the electronic scoring equipment makes at tournaments.
25. waking up at 7 in the morning on a saturday to go run a tournament for seven hours.
26. the way doug always manages to kill his back before tournaments, and the way he always asks me to rub it for him.
27. iced cappuchinos and a doughnut every friday night.
28. driving to detroit in the rain with jon and jp.
29. blowing through red lights while i'm on the phone.
30. converse high tops.
31. mysterious graffiti that appears on my converse after jon wears them.
32. my mom's old jewelry from the 80s.
33. messy ponytails.
34. riding in shopping carts.
35. snow days.
36. riding home at midnight with the postal service blasting so loud you can't hear anything else.
37. green tea with just enough honey.
38. homeade bread.
39. still liking harry potter.
40. waking up at five in the morning on a saturday to go slave labor all day at the renfest, only to get home at ten and wake up again at five the next morning.
41. the car rides up to the renfest.
42. build me up, buttercup!
43. happy meal toys and not the meal itself.
44. that perfect pair of jeans that's destroyed beyond belief but you love.
45. surviving gym class.
46. getting tackled and not even realizing it until you're on the cement laughing.
47. playing baseball in the street on summer nights.
48. jack kerouac.
49. talking to dan about life and living in the wild.
50. organic lotion.
51. the sheer amount of monster cans that collect backstage because of crew.
52. sitting in the parking lot during act one just talking about everything.
53. captain planet tshirts!
54. the mental tie between argyle socks and andre.
55. finding tshirts under your bed you thought were lost for good.
56. hammocks.
57. rustic camping with the family.
58. flannel.
59. paint-stained jeans.
60. when my parents are proud of me.
61. passing algebra 2 tests once in a while.
62. missing almost every hour for in school crew!
63. hall passes.
64. exploding light boards.
65. not sleeping.
66. sleeping in.
67. talking on the phone with alec about absolutely nothing and hanging up and realizing we talked for an hour.
68. SEA meetings.
69. being impulsive, even if it scares you shitless.
70. dying my hair.
71. calling people complete idiots in class and getting away with it because mr. barker agrees with me.
72. reading existentialism for fun.
73. homemade tshirts.
74. sitting crosslegged on counters.
75. daisies.
76. the rec center.
77. albums on vinyl.
78. crowdsurfing!
79. falling over.
80. meeting new, slightly crazy people.
81. carrying monster in my purse.
82. fight club!
83. the feeling of buying a really good book.
84. crude jokes.
85. baking cookies.
86. electric fencing!
87. talking to brian about zombie invasions.
88. knowing at least three people who have made or are making chain mail.
89. fancy coffee.
90. watching cinderella with carl.
91. the christmas spirit.
92. sledding in pajamas.
93. freezing to death at fencing.
94. the bad touch.
95. the phone ringing at midnight.
96. the week that a play opens and crew goes nuts.
97. cast parties.
98. knowing about underground bands before alternative press does.
99. purevolume.
100. the way your ears ring after a really amazing concert.
101. the way your ears ring after riding with jp.
102. red bull for breakfast!
103. being too lazy to eat breakfast.
104. saturday crew and "testing" the strobe lights.
105. listening to people debate about how the metric system screws up the way we cut pizza.
106. facebook.
107. parents being temporarily insane and letting me go to a concert with three guys they'd never met.
108. fedoras.
109. welts from saber!
110. knowing way too many stage combat drills.
111. wishing on 11:11.
112. burger king at midnight.
113. blasting jon out of the house with "because i got high"
114. really warm hoodies.
115. skanking.
116. absurd bruises you don't want to admit you got through your own stupidity.
117. neon eyeliner.
118. falling asleep in world history.
119. biology class.
120. canoeing!
121. building campfires.
122. summer nights where you can lay on the grass and watch fireflies.
123. the feeling of a clean room before it gets trashed again.
124. concert tickets.
125. bike rides in the dark.
126. swingsets.
127. my birthday.
128. being unemployed.
129. hippie clothes.
130. peace and love :)
131. such great heights, by the postal service.
132. amazingly long lasting ipod batteries.
133. comfy pajama pants.
134. hugs.
135. really awesome ballpoint pens.
136. the way you lose your balance in mosh pits.
137. not being able to hear for a couple days because you stood by a speaker.
138. realizing people have no idea how crazy your friends really are.
139. drinking monster when you're supposed to be sleeping.
140. monster chugging contests.
141. beaches.
142. jones soda labels.
143. being able to wander around the school for no reason because "it's for in school crew."
144. the way all your clothes smell like campfire when you get home from camping.
145. the spree fireworks.
146. hiding from creepy cops.
147. getting kicked out of the rec center over and over again.
148. warm concrete.
149. sitting in trees.
150. when sahana and i call matt at three in the morning over the summer and he picks up.
151. buying boxers from the gap and not buying actual clothes.
152. underwear shopping.
153. not doing to-do lists.
154. the perfect green apple.
155. pictures that you didn't mean to take that end up great.
156. ending up on dom's front porch because they took our cookies.
157. eating takeout rice in parking lots.
158. being able to say, a year later, "you still have my shirt..."
159. overpriced concert merch.
160. the overwhelming stack of alternative presses on my shelf.
161. going to fencing and not fencing.
162. smoothies from the smoothie guys at the renfest who dance while they make it.
163. chocolate when you're sad.
164. when you have tons of clean laundry and you wear the same pants for a week straight.
165. cramming five people into four seats after the plays so we can go out to dinner.
166. the cute stickers that come on bananas.
167. that one line of perfect lyrics.
168. tree stars!
169. glow in the dark dinosaur stickers.
170. direct elimination rounds.
171. watching someone pull off a perfect fleche.
172. finally getting your en garde exact.
173. mysterious scrapes from when your non-weapon hand happens to get in the way of your opponents blade.
174. obnoxious socks.
175. listening to doug and travis talk about star wars video games for two hours.
176. balloon duty.
177. NOT knowing the soulja boy dance.
178. flogging molly + dropkick murphys = shawn harris, the irish faerie baby.
179. spare change.
180. walking to the gas station in the middle of act one for mr. corliss.
181. stealing programs.
182. ramen noodles.
183. old pictures.
184. full memory cards.
185. broken blades.
186. fencing parties at doug's house.
187. seeing pirates of the carribean and realizing you own about half of johnny depp's outfit.
188. knowing movies verbatim.
189. the new jersey turnpike.
190. standing at the top of a lighthouse.
191. rolling down sand dunes.
192. frisbee!
193. sunburns.
194. the millenium force.
195. graffiti.
196. obnoxious hats my sister knits me.
197. the way your favorite shirt cost about three bucks, and the way you hate the really expensive shirts.
198. buying new pants and still wearing the old pants.
199. tortilla chips and the good kind of salsa.
200. guacamole.
201. crazy relatives.
202. cheating at euchre.
203. sour patch kids popsicles.
204. christmas cheer.
205. life, in general.
yeah, and i'm in a list making mood anyhow.
things i love about life.
1. looking through stacks of old pictures and remembering.
2. sunny days in the summer where all the leaves are green and the sky's so beautifully blue.
3. bare feet.
4. sundresses.
5. my teddy bear, valiant.
6. warm blankets on cold days.
7. hot cocoa with lots of marshmallows.
8. when my dad makes fires in the fireplace some days in the fall, and we all sit around reading by the fire.
9. the way stars sparkle in the night sky when we're all wandering around at fencing.
10. discovering a song you absolutely love.
11. trench warfare with vitamin water!
12. seeing the full moon.
13. mornings where the bus is on time so you don't freeze.
14. waking up to cute text messages.
15. spiced apple cider with a cinnamon stick in it.
16. wading in the ocean.
17. 35mm film and real pictures.
18. making mixtapes for midnight drives i hope to take.
19. receiving the coolest mixtapes from the coolest people.
20. texting in spanish class and getting away with it.
20.5. seeing other people text in spanish class and not get away with it.
21. jack skellington bed sheets.
22. taking "mental health days" and calling in sick to school.
23. riding on the back of motorcycles.
24. the obnoxious sound the electronic scoring equipment makes at tournaments.
25. waking up at 7 in the morning on a saturday to go run a tournament for seven hours.
26. the way doug always manages to kill his back before tournaments, and the way he always asks me to rub it for him.
27. iced cappuchinos and a doughnut every friday night.
28. driving to detroit in the rain with jon and jp.
29. blowing through red lights while i'm on the phone.
30. converse high tops.
31. mysterious graffiti that appears on my converse after jon wears them.
32. my mom's old jewelry from the 80s.
33. messy ponytails.
34. riding in shopping carts.
35. snow days.
36. riding home at midnight with the postal service blasting so loud you can't hear anything else.
37. green tea with just enough honey.
38. homeade bread.
39. still liking harry potter.
40. waking up at five in the morning on a saturday to go slave labor all day at the renfest, only to get home at ten and wake up again at five the next morning.
41. the car rides up to the renfest.
42. build me up, buttercup!
43. happy meal toys and not the meal itself.
44. that perfect pair of jeans that's destroyed beyond belief but you love.
45. surviving gym class.
46. getting tackled and not even realizing it until you're on the cement laughing.
47. playing baseball in the street on summer nights.
48. jack kerouac.
49. talking to dan about life and living in the wild.
50. organic lotion.
51. the sheer amount of monster cans that collect backstage because of crew.
52. sitting in the parking lot during act one just talking about everything.
53. captain planet tshirts!
54. the mental tie between argyle socks and andre.
55. finding tshirts under your bed you thought were lost for good.
56. hammocks.
57. rustic camping with the family.
58. flannel.
59. paint-stained jeans.
60. when my parents are proud of me.
61. passing algebra 2 tests once in a while.
62. missing almost every hour for in school crew!
63. hall passes.
64. exploding light boards.
65. not sleeping.
66. sleeping in.
67. talking on the phone with alec about absolutely nothing and hanging up and realizing we talked for an hour.
68. SEA meetings.
69. being impulsive, even if it scares you shitless.
70. dying my hair.
71. calling people complete idiots in class and getting away with it because mr. barker agrees with me.
72. reading existentialism for fun.
73. homemade tshirts.
74. sitting crosslegged on counters.
75. daisies.
76. the rec center.
77. albums on vinyl.
78. crowdsurfing!
79. falling over.
80. meeting new, slightly crazy people.
81. carrying monster in my purse.
82. fight club!
83. the feeling of buying a really good book.
84. crude jokes.
85. baking cookies.
86. electric fencing!
87. talking to brian about zombie invasions.
88. knowing at least three people who have made or are making chain mail.
89. fancy coffee.
90. watching cinderella with carl.
91. the christmas spirit.
92. sledding in pajamas.
93. freezing to death at fencing.
94. the bad touch.
95. the phone ringing at midnight.
96. the week that a play opens and crew goes nuts.
97. cast parties.
98. knowing about underground bands before alternative press does.
99. purevolume.
100. the way your ears ring after a really amazing concert.
101. the way your ears ring after riding with jp.
102. red bull for breakfast!
103. being too lazy to eat breakfast.
104. saturday crew and "testing" the strobe lights.
105. listening to people debate about how the metric system screws up the way we cut pizza.
106. facebook.
107. parents being temporarily insane and letting me go to a concert with three guys they'd never met.
108. fedoras.
109. welts from saber!
110. knowing way too many stage combat drills.
111. wishing on 11:11.
112. burger king at midnight.
113. blasting jon out of the house with "because i got high"
114. really warm hoodies.
115. skanking.
116. absurd bruises you don't want to admit you got through your own stupidity.
117. neon eyeliner.
118. falling asleep in world history.
119. biology class.
120. canoeing!
121. building campfires.
122. summer nights where you can lay on the grass and watch fireflies.
123. the feeling of a clean room before it gets trashed again.
124. concert tickets.
125. bike rides in the dark.
126. swingsets.
127. my birthday.
128. being unemployed.
129. hippie clothes.
130. peace and love :)
131. such great heights, by the postal service.
132. amazingly long lasting ipod batteries.
133. comfy pajama pants.
134. hugs.
135. really awesome ballpoint pens.
136. the way you lose your balance in mosh pits.
137. not being able to hear for a couple days because you stood by a speaker.
138. realizing people have no idea how crazy your friends really are.
139. drinking monster when you're supposed to be sleeping.
140. monster chugging contests.
141. beaches.
142. jones soda labels.
143. being able to wander around the school for no reason because "it's for in school crew."
144. the way all your clothes smell like campfire when you get home from camping.
145. the spree fireworks.
146. hiding from creepy cops.
147. getting kicked out of the rec center over and over again.
148. warm concrete.
149. sitting in trees.
150. when sahana and i call matt at three in the morning over the summer and he picks up.
151. buying boxers from the gap and not buying actual clothes.
152. underwear shopping.
153. not doing to-do lists.
154. the perfect green apple.
155. pictures that you didn't mean to take that end up great.
156. ending up on dom's front porch because they took our cookies.
157. eating takeout rice in parking lots.
158. being able to say, a year later, "you still have my shirt..."
159. overpriced concert merch.
160. the overwhelming stack of alternative presses on my shelf.
161. going to fencing and not fencing.
162. smoothies from the smoothie guys at the renfest who dance while they make it.
163. chocolate when you're sad.
164. when you have tons of clean laundry and you wear the same pants for a week straight.
165. cramming five people into four seats after the plays so we can go out to dinner.
166. the cute stickers that come on bananas.
167. that one line of perfect lyrics.
168. tree stars!
169. glow in the dark dinosaur stickers.
170. direct elimination rounds.
171. watching someone pull off a perfect fleche.
172. finally getting your en garde exact.
173. mysterious scrapes from when your non-weapon hand happens to get in the way of your opponents blade.
174. obnoxious socks.
175. listening to doug and travis talk about star wars video games for two hours.
176. balloon duty.
177. NOT knowing the soulja boy dance.
178. flogging molly + dropkick murphys = shawn harris, the irish faerie baby.
179. spare change.
180. walking to the gas station in the middle of act one for mr. corliss.
181. stealing programs.
182. ramen noodles.
183. old pictures.
184. full memory cards.
185. broken blades.
186. fencing parties at doug's house.
187. seeing pirates of the carribean and realizing you own about half of johnny depp's outfit.
188. knowing movies verbatim.
189. the new jersey turnpike.
190. standing at the top of a lighthouse.
191. rolling down sand dunes.
192. frisbee!
193. sunburns.
194. the millenium force.
195. graffiti.
196. obnoxious hats my sister knits me.
197. the way your favorite shirt cost about three bucks, and the way you hate the really expensive shirts.
198. buying new pants and still wearing the old pants.
199. tortilla chips and the good kind of salsa.
200. guacamole.
201. crazy relatives.
202. cheating at euchre.
203. sour patch kids popsicles.
204. christmas cheer.
205. life, in general.
i went kind of nuts
and made two new mix tapes for when i get a car.
the midnight drive.
1. the adventure- angels & airwaves
2. such great heights- the postal service
3. secret crowds- angels & airwaves
4. the gift- angels & airwaves
5. takeoffs and landings- the ataris
6. nightswimming- r.e.m.
7. bittersweet symphony- the verve
8. the quiet things no one ever knows- brand new
9. sweetness- jimmy eat world
10. walking with a ghost- teagan and sara
11. disarm- smashing pumpkins
12. midnight confession- the grass roots
13. chemistry- rush
14. celestial soda pop- ray lynch
15. wonderwall- oasis
16. glycerine- bush
17. let it be- the beatles
18. everything's magic- angels & airwaves
this is the best day ever.
1. surrender- cheap trick
2. bohemian like you- the dandy warhols
3. party boy theme- jackass
4. sweet child o'mine- guns n' roses
5. the bad touch- bloodhound gang
6. little maggots-the matches
7. this is for real- motion city soundtrack
8. ten minutes-the get up kids
9. dysentary gary- blink 182
10. insurance?-the higher
11. feeling this-blink 182
12. fight for your right (to party)- the beastie boys
13. aww dip-cobra starship
14. stuck in america-sugarcult
15. rep your clique- the audition
16. should i stay or should i go-the clash
17. a praise chorus- jimmy eat world
18. blitzkrieg bop- the ramones
19. kiss off-violent femmes
20. my own worst enemy-lit
21. even a broken clock is right twice a day- broadway's not ready
22. the geeks get the girls- american hi-fi
23. girl's not grey- afi
24. red flag-billy talent
so those are all ready to go on tape.
then i had a monster, got forced into two games of family yahtzee that i won (both of them!)
then alec called so we talked for an hour while i finished up arranging the order of the songs.
COOL that killed a battery bar on my phone
tomorrow is christmas eve... crazy thought, isn't it?
the midnight drive.
1. the adventure- angels & airwaves
2. such great heights- the postal service
3. secret crowds- angels & airwaves
4. the gift- angels & airwaves
5. takeoffs and landings- the ataris
6. nightswimming- r.e.m.
7. bittersweet symphony- the verve
8. the quiet things no one ever knows- brand new
9. sweetness- jimmy eat world
10. walking with a ghost- teagan and sara
11. disarm- smashing pumpkins
12. midnight confession- the grass roots
13. chemistry- rush
14. celestial soda pop- ray lynch
15. wonderwall- oasis
16. glycerine- bush
17. let it be- the beatles
18. everything's magic- angels & airwaves
this is the best day ever.
1. surrender- cheap trick
2. bohemian like you- the dandy warhols
3. party boy theme- jackass
4. sweet child o'mine- guns n' roses
5. the bad touch- bloodhound gang
6. little maggots-the matches
7. this is for real- motion city soundtrack
8. ten minutes-the get up kids
9. dysentary gary- blink 182
10. insurance?-the higher
11. feeling this-blink 182
12. fight for your right (to party)- the beastie boys
13. aww dip-cobra starship
14. stuck in america-sugarcult
15. rep your clique- the audition
16. should i stay or should i go-the clash
17. a praise chorus- jimmy eat world
18. blitzkrieg bop- the ramones
19. kiss off-violent femmes
20. my own worst enemy-lit
21. even a broken clock is right twice a day- broadway's not ready
22. the geeks get the girls- american hi-fi
23. girl's not grey- afi
24. red flag-billy talent
so those are all ready to go on tape.
then i had a monster, got forced into two games of family yahtzee that i won (both of them!)
then alec called so we talked for an hour while i finished up arranging the order of the songs.
COOL that killed a battery bar on my phone
tomorrow is christmas eve... crazy thought, isn't it?
Saturday, December 22, 2007
never take friendship personal.
i think i've decided that sleeping is a waste of night.
this will obviously prove to be a horrible decision come the end of break, but for now i'm content with going to bed at two, and waking up at noon.
the night is more interesting. the day is grey, and lonely, and not worth being awake for.
the night is dark, and you can see the christmas lights and the sky and it feels more like living.
i like life right now, honestly.
i like staying up with all the other insomniacs of the world, drowning myself in old episodes of house.
i like sleeping through breakfast and lunch, and eating ice cream at eleven at night.
i like having friends who call me to wake me up because they want to talk to me, who wake up and sneak on the computer at one even with swim practice the next morning.
well. off to watch more house :)
this will obviously prove to be a horrible decision come the end of break, but for now i'm content with going to bed at two, and waking up at noon.
the night is more interesting. the day is grey, and lonely, and not worth being awake for.
the night is dark, and you can see the christmas lights and the sky and it feels more like living.
i like life right now, honestly.
i like staying up with all the other insomniacs of the world, drowning myself in old episodes of house.
i like sleeping through breakfast and lunch, and eating ice cream at eleven at night.
i like having friends who call me to wake me up because they want to talk to me, who wake up and sneak on the computer at one even with swim practice the next morning.
well. off to watch more house :)
somedays, i get crazed.
i forgot how much i liked bayside.
last night was nice. i needed it.
phone with alec for about an hour before sahana came and picked me up :)
we went back to her place where we baked a huge cookie that filled the entire cookie sheet because we didn't want to bother with cookie cutters.
it was huge, and delicious.
we indulged in one (1) awesome adam brody movie- if you haven't seen in the land of women yet, i strongly recommend rushing out and doing so.
we also indulged in about two (2) hours of hardcore talk that we probably both needed.
overall, a good night.
fell asleep my clothes around two or two thirty, only to be woken up at like seven fortyfive because sahana had to be somewhere at eight thirty or so.
came home, made my parents breakfast, and went to bed without eating anything that i made.
i kind of forgot about the whole food thing until dinner today, seeing as i woke up about two or so in the afternoon.
alec called but i've got something to prove so i didn't answer.
oh, and eric called last night asking if i was going to the party. he's really polite.
ethan called too. but we didn't go.
overall, a good day. my room's clean now, so clean you can see the floor and furniture. it's a shock, i know.
we're off to the lightfest. i wish i had my new camera now D:
i didn't wear makeup all day
dan, i listen to you every once in a while after all.
last night was nice. i needed it.
phone with alec for about an hour before sahana came and picked me up :)
we went back to her place where we baked a huge cookie that filled the entire cookie sheet because we didn't want to bother with cookie cutters.
it was huge, and delicious.
we indulged in one (1) awesome adam brody movie- if you haven't seen in the land of women yet, i strongly recommend rushing out and doing so.
we also indulged in about two (2) hours of hardcore talk that we probably both needed.
overall, a good night.
fell asleep my clothes around two or two thirty, only to be woken up at like seven fortyfive because sahana had to be somewhere at eight thirty or so.
came home, made my parents breakfast, and went to bed without eating anything that i made.
i kind of forgot about the whole food thing until dinner today, seeing as i woke up about two or so in the afternoon.
alec called but i've got something to prove so i didn't answer.
oh, and eric called last night asking if i was going to the party. he's really polite.
ethan called too. but we didn't go.
overall, a good day. my room's clean now, so clean you can see the floor and furniture. it's a shock, i know.
we're off to the lightfest. i wish i had my new camera now D:
i didn't wear makeup all day
dan, i listen to you every once in a while after all.
Friday, December 21, 2007
things are pretty cool here.
i love break.
basically, i've been sitting home watching movies and taking naps and staying up until one and sleeping in until noon.
it's nice to not have responsibilities or plans or anything.
i can't believe it's four days until christmas. i'm not really in the spirit this year, but i've just got this resounding happiness anyways.
i've finally gotten back to talking with dan like we used to. it's nice, and always entertaining. last night i was talking to him about all sorts of thing i'm not supposed to talk about except for in code x] alec apparently got kicked off the computer, so when his parents went to watch a movie he called me and we talked for a good hour. it was nice. he and dan are so crazy sometimes. but eventually his parents made him hang up because at that point it was like nine, and he was sick and had to go to swim in the morning. but he called back once they left so we talked for a little while longer while i was still talking to dan until his parents got pretty pissed and he had to go sleep.
then i basically wasted my life watching south park until one in the morning online. bahahaa. so i went to sleep like around 1.30 and was woken up around 8.30 or so by alec calling me because he'd decided it was time for me to wake up. i actually got up and dragged the macbook into bed with me, so we talked for a bit before he had to go to swim and i went back to sleep.
yeah, i like break.
basically, i've been sitting home watching movies and taking naps and staying up until one and sleeping in until noon.
it's nice to not have responsibilities or plans or anything.
i can't believe it's four days until christmas. i'm not really in the spirit this year, but i've just got this resounding happiness anyways.
i've finally gotten back to talking with dan like we used to. it's nice, and always entertaining. last night i was talking to him about all sorts of thing i'm not supposed to talk about except for in code x] alec apparently got kicked off the computer, so when his parents went to watch a movie he called me and we talked for a good hour. it was nice. he and dan are so crazy sometimes. but eventually his parents made him hang up because at that point it was like nine, and he was sick and had to go to swim in the morning. but he called back once they left so we talked for a little while longer while i was still talking to dan until his parents got pretty pissed and he had to go sleep.
then i basically wasted my life watching south park until one in the morning online. bahahaa. so i went to sleep like around 1.30 and was woken up around 8.30 or so by alec calling me because he'd decided it was time for me to wake up. i actually got up and dragged the macbook into bed with me, so we talked for a bit before he had to go to swim and i went back to sleep.
yeah, i like break.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
it fits?
When was the night
that showed us the sign?
Revealed in the sky, to leave all behind.
But where to begin? throwing caution to the wind,
We reached for the stars, everything was now ours.
Did you know how you would move me, did you know?
Did you know how you would move me?
well, I don’t even think so.
but the moment's magic swept us away.
and it’s so close, but we’re so far away.
It’s so close, but we’re so far away.
that showed us the sign?
Revealed in the sky, to leave all behind.
But where to begin? throwing caution to the wind,
We reached for the stars, everything was now ours.
Did you know how you would move me, did you know?
Did you know how you would move me?
well, I don’t even think so.
but the moment's magic swept us away.
and it’s so close, but we’re so far away.
It’s so close, but we’re so far away.
there she goes again...
haha, so monday night was cool. we completely owned jon and vince and dom (not really). my phone got buried in the snow twice, it was so easy to see vince because he was in army fatigues, and next time jon puts snow down my back and makes me freeze again i swear to god i'll punch him.
we eventually ended up on dom's front porch after jon left us to go get the cookies back, a lot of girl talk with chelsea and i, and a few irate phone calls basically consisting of "where the hell are you? come find us! we can't feel our fingers!"
on the way back to jon's, we called mike: "hey, we're on our way to get you."
so, jon and chelsea and i went back to jon's house while jon's mom went and got mike. chelsea and i raided jon's drawers and changed into dry pants and shirts (i took jon's star wars shirt! :D)
basically i ended up with spare change down jon's pants, and a katana two inches from my face while i was on the phone with alec. always fun.
yesterday was lame. a bunch of swimmers called me at like 10.30 asking weird questions. hahaha.
today we had plans but they didn't work out so i'm hanging out here.
i don't know whats going on, whoop whoop.
we eventually ended up on dom's front porch after jon left us to go get the cookies back, a lot of girl talk with chelsea and i, and a few irate phone calls basically consisting of "where the hell are you? come find us! we can't feel our fingers!"
on the way back to jon's, we called mike: "hey, we're on our way to get you."
so, jon and chelsea and i went back to jon's house while jon's mom went and got mike. chelsea and i raided jon's drawers and changed into dry pants and shirts (i took jon's star wars shirt! :D)
basically i ended up with spare change down jon's pants, and a katana two inches from my face while i was on the phone with alec. always fun.
yesterday was lame. a bunch of swimmers called me at like 10.30 asking weird questions. hahaha.
today we had plans but they didn't work out so i'm hanging out here.
i don't know whats going on, whoop whoop.
Monday, December 17, 2007
today's a snow day!
i'm sitting here drinking chamomile tea and being happy.
i plugged in the christmas lights they put around my room and even though the rest of the area is still in high school style disarray with textbooks and all sorts of things, its kind of nice to be here.
possible snowball fight tonight with jon, chelsea, mike, jp, bowen, ian, dom, vince, andrea? then back to jon's house after. we're working on it. it'll be cool. and even if chelsea and i don't get to go, we're all hanging out over break and watching movies and such.
i had some cool talks yesterday.
after graduation, we're taking a road trip and running away to an island and sleeping on the beaches and walking through the forests and watching the sunsets before we have to go back to college. it'll be nice. i'm looking forward to it :)
i finally sucked it up and talked to mike too, after jon threatened to "get me". it wasn't the most comfortable thing, but we're cool now and i feel better now that i'm not hiding from it.
jon's still on my case about other stuff, but whatever :D
two more days until we're free until january!
thank god the school system can be relatively sympathetic once in a while.
i still have some presents to get and wrap, but i have money this year and it's all good.
i'm looking forward to my new camera.
and we're missing the debate meet!
i'm out :D
i plugged in the christmas lights they put around my room and even though the rest of the area is still in high school style disarray with textbooks and all sorts of things, its kind of nice to be here.
possible snowball fight tonight with jon, chelsea, mike, jp, bowen, ian, dom, vince, andrea? then back to jon's house after. we're working on it. it'll be cool. and even if chelsea and i don't get to go, we're all hanging out over break and watching movies and such.
i had some cool talks yesterday.
after graduation, we're taking a road trip and running away to an island and sleeping on the beaches and walking through the forests and watching the sunsets before we have to go back to college. it'll be nice. i'm looking forward to it :)
i finally sucked it up and talked to mike too, after jon threatened to "get me". it wasn't the most comfortable thing, but we're cool now and i feel better now that i'm not hiding from it.
jon's still on my case about other stuff, but whatever :D
two more days until we're free until january!
thank god the school system can be relatively sympathetic once in a while.
i still have some presents to get and wrap, but i have money this year and it's all good.
i'm looking forward to my new camera.
and we're missing the debate meet!
i'm out :D
Sunday, December 16, 2007
ps.
i love talking to dan!
"me": except i think it'd be hard to pay attention in class knowing that mass chaos was going to erupt
"dan": if it was going to erupt, i would suggest not going to class
"me": except i think it'd be hard to pay attention in class knowing that mass chaos was going to erupt
"dan": if it was going to erupt, i would suggest not going to class
war is over, if you want it.
i'm finally in the christmas spirit! boy is it fun :)
now i'm rocking out to christmas music, courtesy of bert mccracken & the street drum corps!
it's pretty much more amazing than anything you'll hear on the christmas music radio station.
i had a fantastical weekend.
so fantastical, i have research for almost all of the bills for debate tomorrow, and i'm writing speeches, and i'm not even aggravated. much. but who cares, because we might not have school tomorrow, and break starts in three days!
sahana is laughing at me.
i drank so much hot cocoa this weekend at the holiday thing it's crazy. that and spiced cider. i love that stuff.
oh yeah, and this morning i went sledding in my pajamas :D always a fun experience, especially in like 6 to 9 inches of snow, depending on the spot on the ground. cold, but fun. my uncle is nuts for getting me to go out there. he was in like, flannel winter patterned pajamas too. and i had like, slippers and my coat and pajamas on. we're a crazy amazing family.
oh yeah, and alec & co. woke me up at a little past 12.30 last night calling me. four times. which i ignored, because i was in that sleep deprived state where when your phone is going off and you're cuddled up on top of a bunk bed with barely any cell reception and a tiny blanket and you're just getting started on sleep and your phone starts vibrating.
regardless, i was rewarded this morning with two lovely voicemails. one consisting of cheap trick playing surrender. AMAZING SONG, BY THE WAY.
and then the other one, bloodhound gang. the bad touch.
i'm not sure what to think of the fact that they decided to wake me up with those songs.
but yeah, i now have a voicemail of bloodhound gang being intensely sexual on my phone.
bahaha i love swim kids.
oh, and i have this area in my phone book on my cell that just goes "northville swim alex." "northville swim ryan." "northville swim tim". because people steal alec's phone and take my number and text me. this is why sahana and i receive phone calls of people (apparently tim) singing happy birthday to me while she's sleeping over.
DAN IS IMING ME WHOOP WHOOP
i haven't talked to him in ages :D
hahaha i am in such a good mood.
i plugged in the christmas lights in my room too.
i think i am addicted to alternative christmas music.
and talking to amazing people.
and procrastinating on debate.
i don't know what i'm doing for new years :o
and i think we're hanging out at jon's for much of break.
should be rad.
i'll stop hyperly rambling :D
now i'm rocking out to christmas music, courtesy of bert mccracken & the street drum corps!
it's pretty much more amazing than anything you'll hear on the christmas music radio station.
i had a fantastical weekend.
so fantastical, i have research for almost all of the bills for debate tomorrow, and i'm writing speeches, and i'm not even aggravated. much. but who cares, because we might not have school tomorrow, and break starts in three days!
sahana is laughing at me.
i drank so much hot cocoa this weekend at the holiday thing it's crazy. that and spiced cider. i love that stuff.
oh yeah, and this morning i went sledding in my pajamas :D always a fun experience, especially in like 6 to 9 inches of snow, depending on the spot on the ground. cold, but fun. my uncle is nuts for getting me to go out there. he was in like, flannel winter patterned pajamas too. and i had like, slippers and my coat and pajamas on. we're a crazy amazing family.
oh yeah, and alec & co. woke me up at a little past 12.30 last night calling me. four times. which i ignored, because i was in that sleep deprived state where when your phone is going off and you're cuddled up on top of a bunk bed with barely any cell reception and a tiny blanket and you're just getting started on sleep and your phone starts vibrating.
regardless, i was rewarded this morning with two lovely voicemails. one consisting of cheap trick playing surrender. AMAZING SONG, BY THE WAY.
and then the other one, bloodhound gang. the bad touch.
i'm not sure what to think of the fact that they decided to wake me up with those songs.
but yeah, i now have a voicemail of bloodhound gang being intensely sexual on my phone.
bahaha i love swim kids.
oh, and i have this area in my phone book on my cell that just goes "northville swim alex." "northville swim ryan." "northville swim tim". because people steal alec's phone and take my number and text me. this is why sahana and i receive phone calls of people (apparently tim) singing happy birthday to me while she's sleeping over.
DAN IS IMING ME WHOOP WHOOP
i haven't talked to him in ages :D
hahaha i am in such a good mood.
i plugged in the christmas lights in my room too.
i think i am addicted to alternative christmas music.
and talking to amazing people.
and procrastinating on debate.
i don't know what i'm doing for new years :o
and i think we're hanging out at jon's for much of break.
should be rad.
i'll stop hyperly rambling :D
Thursday, December 13, 2007
if i had my own world, i'd build you an empire.
let me feel you, carry you higher.
watch our words spread hope like fire.
secret crowds rise up and gather.
hear your voices sing back louder.
i had that song on repeat for about an hour today.
february twenty third! it's in that semi-confirmed now... i've mentioned it to my mom several times, and the fact that we have a ride with Jp. we just have to do the official discussion thing when i actually have some money at all to get a ticket with. but i'm excited. i love them too much.
today was not exactly the best day i've ever had. i sat through most of my hours in a stupor, wishing it was friday. world history was by far the best hour- a whole hour with a sub and a movie and absolutely no form of assignment. we were technically supposed to actually watch the video, but half the class blew that off anyways. i spent the hour writing in my journal to kind of keep me calm and relatively awake. we got the quizzes in math back; D-. it kind of pisses me off but at the same time i couldn't honestly give a flying fuck, it only bothers me because i know i'll get chewed out for it later.
and i did, when i got home and told my dad. i also told him that i wanted to go from accelerated algebra 2 to regular algebra 2 next semester, in hopes that maybe i can pull off better than a C+ and have more time to learn the subject material, but my dad basically blew up at me. long story short, there was a lot of pounding on the table, shouting, and some choice words thrown into the mix. apparently he won't let me go to regular classes, i just need to put more effort in and spend more time on math instead of talking to my friends online or hanging out on the weekends. etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. so after a through verbal assault from him that admittedly left me in tears, i went back to my room to resume the onslaught of homework that i'd been plugging away at since two thirty. and i actually just now finished most of it. nine thirty at night. that's six and a half hours of homework, if you count in that i spent a half hour eating dinner and getting yelled at by dad.
six and a half hours of homework.
honestly, i hate to admit it, but that's probably more than i've spent on homework in the past two weeks.
i'm almost positive of that fact. which is pretty bad, by my parents standards.
i didn't even write debate speeches- i have about half the cards i probably should, but i'll just have to wing it while proving to sherburne that i have at least a few citations that i can throw around so he won't be mad or dissapointed.
and i have to study for the chapter math test that i need to take after school tomorrow, but i am so braindead i don't even want to confront myself with thinking about that. i'll probably pull out my notes during world history and try to remember a vague amount of information. i probably won't do very good at it. so drop me down to a C, bleh. i don't think i can really muster the effort to memorize all of what i need for it at all.
and life... well, life is crazy.
i'm glad tomorrow is friday.
all weekend i'll be at howell nature center lodge with my mom's side of the family. and really bad cell phone service.
yeah, not so glad about that one.
but fencing should be rad. it's the tournament. i'm happy. i just wasted my entire night on homework and i don't want to go to bed.
my dad came in to talk to me after he blew up at me and i told him i didn't even want to go there. i don't want to start crying again when i'm trying to finish my work on the skeletal system, thanks. we'll have to talk later i guess. i haven't spoken a word to him since. my mom's seen me maybe five minutes total this evening?
i hate solving people's problems.
mostly, i hate thinking about my own. but right now, i do not want to sign off and go to bed.
so i won't.
watch our words spread hope like fire.
secret crowds rise up and gather.
hear your voices sing back louder.
i had that song on repeat for about an hour today.
february twenty third! it's in that semi-confirmed now... i've mentioned it to my mom several times, and the fact that we have a ride with Jp. we just have to do the official discussion thing when i actually have some money at all to get a ticket with. but i'm excited. i love them too much.
today was not exactly the best day i've ever had. i sat through most of my hours in a stupor, wishing it was friday. world history was by far the best hour- a whole hour with a sub and a movie and absolutely no form of assignment. we were technically supposed to actually watch the video, but half the class blew that off anyways. i spent the hour writing in my journal to kind of keep me calm and relatively awake. we got the quizzes in math back; D-. it kind of pisses me off but at the same time i couldn't honestly give a flying fuck, it only bothers me because i know i'll get chewed out for it later.
and i did, when i got home and told my dad. i also told him that i wanted to go from accelerated algebra 2 to regular algebra 2 next semester, in hopes that maybe i can pull off better than a C+ and have more time to learn the subject material, but my dad basically blew up at me. long story short, there was a lot of pounding on the table, shouting, and some choice words thrown into the mix. apparently he won't let me go to regular classes, i just need to put more effort in and spend more time on math instead of talking to my friends online or hanging out on the weekends. etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. so after a through verbal assault from him that admittedly left me in tears, i went back to my room to resume the onslaught of homework that i'd been plugging away at since two thirty. and i actually just now finished most of it. nine thirty at night. that's six and a half hours of homework, if you count in that i spent a half hour eating dinner and getting yelled at by dad.
six and a half hours of homework.
honestly, i hate to admit it, but that's probably more than i've spent on homework in the past two weeks.
i'm almost positive of that fact. which is pretty bad, by my parents standards.
i didn't even write debate speeches- i have about half the cards i probably should, but i'll just have to wing it while proving to sherburne that i have at least a few citations that i can throw around so he won't be mad or dissapointed.
and i have to study for the chapter math test that i need to take after school tomorrow, but i am so braindead i don't even want to confront myself with thinking about that. i'll probably pull out my notes during world history and try to remember a vague amount of information. i probably won't do very good at it. so drop me down to a C, bleh. i don't think i can really muster the effort to memorize all of what i need for it at all.
and life... well, life is crazy.
i'm glad tomorrow is friday.
all weekend i'll be at howell nature center lodge with my mom's side of the family. and really bad cell phone service.
yeah, not so glad about that one.
but fencing should be rad. it's the tournament. i'm happy. i just wasted my entire night on homework and i don't want to go to bed.
my dad came in to talk to me after he blew up at me and i told him i didn't even want to go there. i don't want to start crying again when i'm trying to finish my work on the skeletal system, thanks. we'll have to talk later i guess. i haven't spoken a word to him since. my mom's seen me maybe five minutes total this evening?
i hate solving people's problems.
mostly, i hate thinking about my own. but right now, i do not want to sign off and go to bed.
so i won't.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
vulnerable.
i hate homework
i have a lot of tests to make up
the top model finale makes me laugh.
people are so unusual.
sahana and i talked on the phone today. it was nice.
i miss how we used to spend hours just talking.
it was kind of funny.
you so did not call it!
i love you anyways.
i've discovered my hidden pyromanical tendencies.
i don't really want to put effort into debate but i should
i want it to be friday!
the weekend should be interesting.
five days until break
i'm not sure why i posted this!
i have a lot of tests to make up
the top model finale makes me laugh.
people are so unusual.
sahana and i talked on the phone today. it was nice.
i miss how we used to spend hours just talking.
it was kind of funny.
you so did not call it!
i love you anyways.
i've discovered my hidden pyromanical tendencies.
i don't really want to put effort into debate but i should
i want it to be friday!
the weekend should be interesting.
five days until break
i'm not sure why i posted this!
Monday, December 10, 2007
is it so strange
that i refused to put this song onto my ipod, because i didn't want to walk down the street listening to it and have reality ruin it?
second star to the right, and straight on 'til morning.
i kind of miss feeling like a kid, but not really. in one sense i miss being so innocent and still believing in magic and things under the stairs and thinking that anything was possible. but in another sense i'm glad i'm here, experiencing the things that i am, and learning from them.
at least, i hope i'm learning something from this insanity.
i'm counting down the days until i get my camera.
i don't care what you guys say, they're going to regret getting it for me. expect me to be constantly taking pictures of you.
i've missed being able to document everything.
i can't wait until i'm sixteen. in my mind my dad caved and gave me the beetle- i can kind of sense that he feels like he might give it to me, but i know he's worried i'd crash it or somehow screw it up, and he's been working on it since before i was born. but i can see me driving around in this old, faded turquoise volkswagon from 1964 or somewhere around that time frame. hippie car, much? :) a car like that deserves fresh flowers on the dashboard, cassettes in the stereo, and that greenpeace bumper sticker i've been saving. i feel like a huge dork for imagining that, but i want it so bad.
i cleaned my room up a little bit today. i keep rediscovering all these clothes that i bought at one point and then kind of gave up on trying to pull off. i actually like plenty of them now. i need to get back to caring about stuff. i've kind of boycotted shopping for clothes since before school started. i've been saving my money so this summer i can get stuff i want and actually wear it. i hate winter and how it forces all of us into sweaters and jeans and sneakers. maybe this summer will be different. i'm strongly considering giving up my boycott of shorts. i don't even really remember why i started it, except for the fact that i hate my legs. but whatever, i don't think i really care anymore. my mom lent me this old purse of hers. she thinks maybe she got it from grandmother. it's obnoxious and canvas and i like it.
i decided i think i want to get a job at the library. i can bike there when i work, and they're probably more flexible about hours and such. seeing as i'm really weird and can't work weekends because of the renaissance faire, and i have to take drivers ed. i'm kind of proud of myself that i might actually be doing things this summer. and warped could be cool, if we decide to go. it's gotten to the point where i'm allowed to go now, and i'm not sure if any of the bands are that great anymore. besides, i think we're seeing angels & airwaves in february if my mom will let me go (i'm pretty sure she will) and i'm looking forward to that so much.
i still haven't figured out what the hell i'm going to do to my hair. i have to redye it, and then i think i'm making the ends a kind of purplish color. i wish it weren't so straight. itd be nice if it were wavy, and then i wouldn't have to fool around with curling irons if i want it to look cute or anything. bleh. whatever. i'll figure it out eventually.
mom might not let me skip friday this week like she was originally going to. the plan was everyone was coming to my house (all the aunts and shannon and i) and we bake the christmas cookies for the holiday party at the lodge that's saturday and sunday. but i've already missed two days of school and if i missed friday for the cookies i would've only gone in two days out of the week. which i'm not complaining about, but i can see why she isn't too keen on letting me miss. where's her christmas spirit?
i got those notebooks i've been meaning to get and so i'm not sure why i write in this. i'm not even saying anything important like i am in the notebooks. ha. i'm pathetic :)
second star to the right, and straight on 'til morning.
i kind of miss feeling like a kid, but not really. in one sense i miss being so innocent and still believing in magic and things under the stairs and thinking that anything was possible. but in another sense i'm glad i'm here, experiencing the things that i am, and learning from them.
at least, i hope i'm learning something from this insanity.
i'm counting down the days until i get my camera.
i don't care what you guys say, they're going to regret getting it for me. expect me to be constantly taking pictures of you.
i've missed being able to document everything.
i can't wait until i'm sixteen. in my mind my dad caved and gave me the beetle- i can kind of sense that he feels like he might give it to me, but i know he's worried i'd crash it or somehow screw it up, and he's been working on it since before i was born. but i can see me driving around in this old, faded turquoise volkswagon from 1964 or somewhere around that time frame. hippie car, much? :) a car like that deserves fresh flowers on the dashboard, cassettes in the stereo, and that greenpeace bumper sticker i've been saving. i feel like a huge dork for imagining that, but i want it so bad.
i cleaned my room up a little bit today. i keep rediscovering all these clothes that i bought at one point and then kind of gave up on trying to pull off. i actually like plenty of them now. i need to get back to caring about stuff. i've kind of boycotted shopping for clothes since before school started. i've been saving my money so this summer i can get stuff i want and actually wear it. i hate winter and how it forces all of us into sweaters and jeans and sneakers. maybe this summer will be different. i'm strongly considering giving up my boycott of shorts. i don't even really remember why i started it, except for the fact that i hate my legs. but whatever, i don't think i really care anymore. my mom lent me this old purse of hers. she thinks maybe she got it from grandmother. it's obnoxious and canvas and i like it.
i decided i think i want to get a job at the library. i can bike there when i work, and they're probably more flexible about hours and such. seeing as i'm really weird and can't work weekends because of the renaissance faire, and i have to take drivers ed. i'm kind of proud of myself that i might actually be doing things this summer. and warped could be cool, if we decide to go. it's gotten to the point where i'm allowed to go now, and i'm not sure if any of the bands are that great anymore. besides, i think we're seeing angels & airwaves in february if my mom will let me go (i'm pretty sure she will) and i'm looking forward to that so much.
i still haven't figured out what the hell i'm going to do to my hair. i have to redye it, and then i think i'm making the ends a kind of purplish color. i wish it weren't so straight. itd be nice if it were wavy, and then i wouldn't have to fool around with curling irons if i want it to look cute or anything. bleh. whatever. i'll figure it out eventually.
mom might not let me skip friday this week like she was originally going to. the plan was everyone was coming to my house (all the aunts and shannon and i) and we bake the christmas cookies for the holiday party at the lodge that's saturday and sunday. but i've already missed two days of school and if i missed friday for the cookies i would've only gone in two days out of the week. which i'm not complaining about, but i can see why she isn't too keen on letting me miss. where's her christmas spirit?
i got those notebooks i've been meaning to get and so i'm not sure why i write in this. i'm not even saying anything important like i am in the notebooks. ha. i'm pathetic :)
Saturday, December 8, 2007
walking in a straight line,
i find it hilarious that i listened to this band on lastfm a few months ago and now they're blasting from the radio when i take a shower.
i think i'm sick. wow, gee, it was a great idea to go outside in 30 degree weather two days in a row for no reason.
hah. my throat's sore and i'm all runny-nosed, lethargic and just sick feeling. maybe i'll get worse and get lucky and get monday off, or something astounding like that.
turns out there's another week of fencing anyways. cool. if doug makes me referee this one i'm bolting to mexico. people would stomp nick and i if we tried to ref the class tournament.
erik came back! that pretty much made my week :] i gave him a bunch of hugs. i love that kid so much. i hadn't seen him since june D:
uh yeah. SEA thing today was lame. bonus, i got the new notebooks i've been lusting after. and a raspberry green tea jones that i enjoyed with lauren. so i spent this afternoon writing the stuff i don't feel like posting on here for whatever personal reason, and listening to the postal service.
one and a half weeks until break.
next weekend is the family christmas thing at howell nature center; aka. i won't be online all weekend and instead will be chilling with the entire moms side of my family with nothing but my journal, my sanity, and terrible cell phone signal.
good lord.
and the last week of fencing until january. bleh.
i'm off to go crash in my sick and weakened state.
night :]
i think i'm sick. wow, gee, it was a great idea to go outside in 30 degree weather two days in a row for no reason.
hah. my throat's sore and i'm all runny-nosed, lethargic and just sick feeling. maybe i'll get worse and get lucky and get monday off, or something astounding like that.
turns out there's another week of fencing anyways. cool. if doug makes me referee this one i'm bolting to mexico. people would stomp nick and i if we tried to ref the class tournament.
erik came back! that pretty much made my week :] i gave him a bunch of hugs. i love that kid so much. i hadn't seen him since june D:
uh yeah. SEA thing today was lame. bonus, i got the new notebooks i've been lusting after. and a raspberry green tea jones that i enjoyed with lauren. so i spent this afternoon writing the stuff i don't feel like posting on here for whatever personal reason, and listening to the postal service.
one and a half weeks until break.
next weekend is the family christmas thing at howell nature center; aka. i won't be online all weekend and instead will be chilling with the entire moms side of my family with nothing but my journal, my sanity, and terrible cell phone signal.
good lord.
and the last week of fencing until january. bleh.
i'm off to go crash in my sick and weakened state.
night :]
Friday, December 7, 2007
you know you want friends like these.
Brian: Hey!
Elise Thompson: hey!
Brian: Kill anyone recently that I don't know about
Elise Thompson: haha, if i killed anyone you'd probably be one of the first to hear about it
you?
Brian:Yeah
Brian: This guy was like, "hey you wanna buy some drugs?'
Brian: So I said, "FUCK NO"
Brian: And then stabbed him
Elise Thompson: damn
Elise Thompson: i'm proud of you
Elise Thompson:tell me you used the ultracool roman sword?
Brian: No, I didn't have it on me
Brian: I just used my knife
Brian:You know what I really love
Brian: ?
Elise Thompson: what?
Brian: Is how we can talk about this and be completely serious
Elise Thompson: i know, right
Elise Thompson: this killing business is some crazy shit
Brian: I know
Elise Thompson: not to mention it's bloody and obnoxious
Brian: I know
Brian: Its so annoying
Elise Thompson: god
Elise Thompson: it's such a pain too
Brian: The whole blood thing, to clean it all up
Elise Thompson: then you have to clean your weapon all over again
Elise Thompson: god
Brian: Yeah I know
Brian: Its so annoying
Elise Thompson: they need to invent like blood removing stuff
Brian: God, this one time I just broke someone's neck with a crowbar, now that was an easy clean-up
Elise Thompson: yeah, it's so much easier that way
Elise Thompson:stabbing's just such a hassle
Elise Thompson: gunshots too
Brian:Yeah
Brian: Well, I actually have to go lol
Elise Thompson: lol x] alright
Brian: So happy to talk to you, but see ya
Elise Thompson: i'm glad we could have this talk
Elise Thompson: bye!
Brian: Bye :)
ahaha.
Elise Thompson: hey!
Brian: Kill anyone recently that I don't know about
Elise Thompson: haha, if i killed anyone you'd probably be one of the first to hear about it
you?
Brian:Yeah
Brian: This guy was like, "hey you wanna buy some drugs?'
Brian: So I said, "FUCK NO"
Brian: And then stabbed him
Elise Thompson: damn
Elise Thompson: i'm proud of you
Elise Thompson:tell me you used the ultracool roman sword?
Brian: No, I didn't have it on me
Brian: I just used my knife
Brian:You know what I really love
Brian: ?
Elise Thompson: what?
Brian: Is how we can talk about this and be completely serious
Elise Thompson: i know, right
Elise Thompson: this killing business is some crazy shit
Brian: I know
Elise Thompson: not to mention it's bloody and obnoxious
Brian: I know
Brian: Its so annoying
Elise Thompson: god
Elise Thompson: it's such a pain too
Brian: The whole blood thing, to clean it all up
Elise Thompson: then you have to clean your weapon all over again
Elise Thompson: god
Brian: Yeah I know
Brian: Its so annoying
Elise Thompson: they need to invent like blood removing stuff
Brian: God, this one time I just broke someone's neck with a crowbar, now that was an easy clean-up
Elise Thompson: yeah, it's so much easier that way
Elise Thompson:stabbing's just such a hassle
Elise Thompson: gunshots too
Brian:Yeah
Brian: Well, I actually have to go lol
Elise Thompson: lol x] alright
Brian: So happy to talk to you, but see ya
Elise Thompson: i'm glad we could have this talk
Elise Thompson: bye!
Brian: Bye :)
ahaha.
Thursday, December 6, 2007
i need you here tonight just like the ocean needs the waves.
ahh i'm ready for the weekend to be here.
in a big way.
cool. my gpa realization actually has me slacking off MORE than i did with a 3.8 or whatever i had. it's lame.
my day was boring.
biology class is getting more and more sexual every day. somehow we ended up talking about sorority houses, synchronized menstruation, and whale rape?
hey. it was funny. i still have no clue about the nervous system, but who needs that when you have, uh... whale rape.
ugh ugh ugh.
apparently jon and chelsea and jp and i are going to go see angels & airwaves?
it'll rule :]
except i'm going to get stuck riding shotgun again. blehh. lol. jon already called the backseat with chelsea x]
in a big way.
cool. my gpa realization actually has me slacking off MORE than i did with a 3.8 or whatever i had. it's lame.
my day was boring.
biology class is getting more and more sexual every day. somehow we ended up talking about sorority houses, synchronized menstruation, and whale rape?
hey. it was funny. i still have no clue about the nervous system, but who needs that when you have, uh... whale rape.
ugh ugh ugh.
apparently jon and chelsea and jp and i are going to go see angels & airwaves?
it'll rule :]
except i'm going to get stuck riding shotgun again. blehh. lol. jon already called the backseat with chelsea x]
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
:D
my day was just completely made.
angels and airwaves are coming to town in february, on a saturday night
my mom's cool with me going
and they're tied for my favorite band with the matches
THIS IS AWESOME
seeing as i missed their november show... it was a school night, psh.
but i can pretty much go already, since it's not a school night
and it's not too far away
and this just thrills me to no end.
i finally am probably going to go see them live <3
my life will be complete.
angels and airwaves are coming to town in february, on a saturday night
my mom's cool with me going
and they're tied for my favorite band with the matches
THIS IS AWESOME
seeing as i missed their november show... it was a school night, psh.
but i can pretty much go already, since it's not a school night
and it's not too far away
and this just thrills me to no end.
i finally am probably going to go see them live <3
my life will be complete.
hey, administration:
eat shit.
i have a 4.0 gpa with a C+ in algebra 2
and no real effort ever exerted.
oh, and with another 2 percent in spanish, i'll have OVER a four point.
and if i ever up that math grade, i'll be seriously kicking ass.
ahaha.
guess this means i have no life now, according to mike?
7:19:04 PM Mike: i cme to a conclusion that anyone who has a 4.0 eather has no life whatsoever or there cheeting the system lol
coooooooooool.
i'll have to tell him that.
i have a 4.0 gpa with a C+ in algebra 2
and no real effort ever exerted.
oh, and with another 2 percent in spanish, i'll have OVER a four point.
and if i ever up that math grade, i'll be seriously kicking ass.
ahaha.
guess this means i have no life now, according to mike?
7:19:04 PM Mike: i cme to a conclusion that anyone who has a 4.0 eather has no life whatsoever or there cheeting the system lol
coooooooooool.
i'll have to tell him that.
Monday, December 3, 2007
and you want to be dressed in poetry, but imagery doesn't fit.
i plugged my ipod into my laptop again so i can listen to more than like the hundred or so songs saved on my computer. i have something like two thousand on the ipod that i haven't bothered to transfer to my new itunes. whatever. so i'm listening to all sorts of cool things i've been ignoring for a while :)
i like how when i sit down and do my homework, i feel so accomplished. i think that could be a bad sign. but i hate how i can let myself go and still have 5 as and a c+. sure, i'm happy i can get away with pretty much doing nothing, but eventually i'll have to start working. what a pain.
things are cool, i suppose. nothing really bad is happening, it's just the same old drudgery. though i have to admit there are a few things i'll be interested in seeing how they shake out. however, i'm damn happy for jon. i know he wanted this :) and i'm pretty sure chelsea isn't objecting to any of it. it's nice seeing them happy.
haha. it just makes me laugh how i can be so afraid of commitment yet feel so comfortable with some people. but anything with relationships just freaks me out. i don't even think commitment is the right word for it... it's just anything that involves me being someone's girlfriend or whatever just doesn't work out mentally. who knows. i'll fix it when i need to.
i'm not moving :) hurrah. thank god. i was so shaken up about that.
17 days until christmas break. i already can't wait.
my sister has apparently found my angels and airwaves cd and she's blasting it in the kitchen. coool. i wouldn't normally mind, but it's just the fact that it's angels & airwaves and she probably can't even comprehend most of the meaning behind it and that irks me. that reminds me, once i actually stop being broke, it might be a good idea to buy their new cd.
i basically figured out that my summer is going to be me trying to get a job and work so i can save up money for a car/gas money so i don't have to work during the school year, taking drivers ed, and working at the renfest. and probably hanging out with jon & co. wayy too much. and probably buying/making too many new clothes and going to shows.
hell. i might have a life this summer :D
D:
sounds fun, yet not necessarily productive.
oh, yeah. and i might actually get off my ass if i have time and work out.
whoop whoop :]
i want it to be breakkk.
or, you know, june.
i like how when i sit down and do my homework, i feel so accomplished. i think that could be a bad sign. but i hate how i can let myself go and still have 5 as and a c+. sure, i'm happy i can get away with pretty much doing nothing, but eventually i'll have to start working. what a pain.
things are cool, i suppose. nothing really bad is happening, it's just the same old drudgery. though i have to admit there are a few things i'll be interested in seeing how they shake out. however, i'm damn happy for jon. i know he wanted this :) and i'm pretty sure chelsea isn't objecting to any of it. it's nice seeing them happy.
haha. it just makes me laugh how i can be so afraid of commitment yet feel so comfortable with some people. but anything with relationships just freaks me out. i don't even think commitment is the right word for it... it's just anything that involves me being someone's girlfriend or whatever just doesn't work out mentally. who knows. i'll fix it when i need to.
i'm not moving :) hurrah. thank god. i was so shaken up about that.
17 days until christmas break. i already can't wait.
my sister has apparently found my angels and airwaves cd and she's blasting it in the kitchen. coool. i wouldn't normally mind, but it's just the fact that it's angels & airwaves and she probably can't even comprehend most of the meaning behind it and that irks me. that reminds me, once i actually stop being broke, it might be a good idea to buy their new cd.
i basically figured out that my summer is going to be me trying to get a job and work so i can save up money for a car/gas money so i don't have to work during the school year, taking drivers ed, and working at the renfest. and probably hanging out with jon & co. wayy too much. and probably buying/making too many new clothes and going to shows.
hell. i might have a life this summer :D
D:
sounds fun, yet not necessarily productive.
oh, yeah. and i might actually get off my ass if i have time and work out.
whoop whoop :]
i want it to be breakkk.
or, you know, june.
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