i want to be more than you see me as.

i hate how people lately feel like they need to constantly trash me in subtle ways. it brings me down, and i hate that.


when i say sorry, i mean it.
i wish i could say all of this to you. what would it change?

i'm lazy about updating. i guess i've just decided if people want to know about the specifics of what's going on with me, they'll ask.


i'll be fifteen tomorrow, and i don't feel a bit older at all. birthdays don't make you any more wise than just life does.
i told people not to get me stuff because i don't think it deserves much celebration beyond them wishing me a happy birthday (which most did, including the spanish class >.<)
he of course had to be stubborn and not listen to me, but it was sweet of him all the same :)



coolcool. i'm off to go tame my amazing bedhead. i fell asleep on the couch last night talking to matt and watching scrubs, and woke up around two am to move my laptop and myself upstairs and go back to sleep in my own bed.

... apparently, thats not the best idea when you have really random hair like me.

things i like about life.

sitting in my bathtub with my laptop and a blanket
blasting ima robot.


it's comfy, man.
i want one of these for a bed when i have my own place.

words of wisdom.

"Brian": No
"Brian": I am EPICALLY eating breakfast
"Elise Thompson": oh, right right
"Brian": Dude, I want to shield bash someone


... my life is so weird.


HOW ARE YOU GUYS?

angels & airwaves tickets came a week ago.
i would've mentioned it maybe but i had a shitty day that day.
or did i already post that i got them?

i don't know.
i'm really bad at writing what i'm thinking because lately i've been thinking so much.
it's not sad as much as it is interesting and calming but upsetting at the same time.

i want to master things. and i know what i'm going to do. is that all i need?
i don't want to do algebra 2. i'll pass the class with a c or a c- depending on how bad i do on the final, but i'm not worried anymore. if i dedicate myself to the rest of my classes it should be okay.
but i already have a list of things i am going to teach myself.
i've decided i can allow myself to not try the most in math, if i make up for it and learn other things.


excuses, excuses.
i like kaylee's dream x]

tomorrow's fencing. it'll be cool.
i can't wait to see sahana again sunday!
i've developed a newfound passion for naps. they help.


... love.

i'm bad at updating.

yesterday: last night of one act plays.
we arrived at school for class at 6.50 am, and didn't get out of the building until 9.30pm. that's about a 14 or so hour day, if my math is right. 14 hours straight, not leaving school.


i slept in until one today.

the only reason i'm really posting this is out of excitement for two reasons.

1) my angels & airwaves tickets came in the mail!

2) i woke up to a myspace bulletin from the matches ANNOUNCING THEY WOULD BE ON THE ALTERNATIVE PRESS TOUR THIS YEAR.

which, since they're tied for my favorite band with angels & airwaves, excited me to no end.
best part? they're performing april 4th, a FRIDAY NIGHT. not a school night. which means i can go.
other best part? yesterday morning my mom was asking what i wanted for my birthday. i had no idea. now, i do.
other other best part? the presale starts janury 22- 25, just in time for my birthday. even if we can't get presale tickets, the sale starts the 26th, the day before my birthday.

so, i think i might just be going to see two of my favorite bands in the span of two months- angels & airwaves in february, and the matches in april.


(co headliners with the matches: all time low, the rocket summer, sonny, forever the sickest kids.)

hell yes :D

fuck the free world!

i adore lauren. but more importantly; the authorities of stevenson finally caught on that a kid was walking around with pink highlighter colored hair.

so, last night, after a bitching day, i came home at about 9.30 having not left school since 6.50 in the morning, and proceeded to dye my hair back to a normal color.

yeah. yesterday was not at all a good day.
today might be bad during school because of a bunch of work i didn't do and tests
but i don't really have time or effort to be concerned.

i went to bed at about 11.30. yeahhhh, no sleep. fun.
off to school, then.

you put me in the magic position!

oh yeah.

my hair's bright fuschia now, because i redyed it. so long school appropriate orangey-pink that i got away with.
...oops.
i hope they don't notice until after the one act plays.


i have unlimited texting.
it's fun.
that means everyone, talk to me :D

apologies for the short posts.

i haven't been in a really "tell all about my life" mood. i'm perfectly happy, and content, and i just don't want to bother putting down all these things. but, if even sahana is getting around to updating more than once a month, i guess you all deserve to hear some thoughts that don't involve random concert dreams.

OKAY. what to talk about, what to talk about. friday we were at crew from when school let out and i didn't make it home until 6.45. can you say "week before plays opening?" this is how it always goes down. and crew is basically freaking, etc. it was fun though. saturday crew from nine in the morning until we left at about 2.15. the set looks really good. ethan was all mad at me and people.

and so that was my yesterday: waking up, getting ready, going to saturday crew, coming home, doing stuff, talking to alec, and going to bed.

hip hip hooray for really needing a social life outside of crew.
oh, and "studying for finals."

"how's the algebra 2 coming?"
"... good..." (goes back to NOT DOING ALGEBRA 2)

thursday night is one acts opening, so we'll be there from five to at least nine.
friday night is the last night of one acts, and then we're going out to red robin. i'll probably get home around eleven or midnight.
saturday, i have no idea. presumably sleeping. maybe doing something.
and then next friday is fencing.


besides debate and SEA and crew, i need to make myself go do things like go to movies. it's embarassing how little i do outside of school related functions and fencing.

wouldn't it be rad

to go to a dropkick murphys/ flogging molly concert ON ST. PATRICKS DAY?

i just thought of that.

BAM!

chelsea and i have tickets to see
angels & airwaves with meg and dia and the color fred.

on saturday, february 23rd, at 5.30 pm at the state theatre.
we can die happy now :)

well, I don't do love letters

I'm no good with flowers
If I forget your birthday
Will you still love me?

:D ima robot, ha.
today was a good day
didn't get in trouble for my hair

new years was rad. we didn't sleep nearly enough.
today i had two monsters and a frappuchino, all in the past like 12 hours.
i'm still crashing

i'm ordering the angels & airwaves tickets for chelsea and i as we speak
i'm hypedd
andre made me a mix cd
classes were fine, actually

crew was fantastic
my hamster died but i'm not sad really
just glad that he died with my dad holding him
2.25 years is a hell of a long time. it was a good life.


things aren't permanent, ever. i get that now.
i love my friends.
i just realized how much they mean to me.


<3

ohman. too much caffeine.